A New Week, Priorities and Post #50

So I made it through last week! Almost all of my to do lists got done, and the few things I didn't get to were non-essential, except the cleaning, it was essential and will happen today, but everything else essential happened, successfully!

Thursday felt incredibly long, but I did it!
I ran MOPS in the morning, for the quietest, most calm kids we've ever had! It was so nice to walk the halls checking for problems and not find any, so basically I just walked the halls. Next time if it's that quiet I'm dragging out a chair and sitting though. Walking those hard halls for that long is work on my body, strangely worse than running on pavement because even though they're carpeted, they've carpeted over cement with 30 year old padding and no shock absorbtion what-so-ever and my legs and hips were feeling it that night.
Jon's play was okay, he was cute, but cute doing the exact same stuff we saw him do last year, except this year he got to hit a boomwhacker stick twice and last year he only sang. My in-law's church does the same play for 3 years, then takes a year off, then goes back to the first one for three more years. Next year is an off year, so in two years we'll have to go watch again and he'll be old enough to whack a boomwhacker six times instead of two. :) Seriously, why would you do the same play for 3 years straight? Especially when you have 7 showings of the same play every year?

Friday was spent trying to catch up and get ready for Saturday, I didn't even come close to getting everything done, but you know what? I don't really care, Adam and I had fun Friday, we shopped in the cold, picked up take out, and ate on the couch watching TV and seriously just relaxed, and that's what we needed. I'm discovering we need several more hours like that before Texas, or the ride down is not going to be so pleasant.

Do you ever find that you're in a spot when you just need to do nothing with your husband? Spend time together, just doing nothing? We're there right now, but until Friday, it's not going to happen. Work, we can't get rid of, but everything else, we can. So, this weekend is nothing weekend for us. We need to just spend time together, touching each other physically, emotionally, mentally, just being together, just us, no to do lists, no other people, just us time. We need it so badly right now. Adam was complaining about feeling selfish last night, and he's right he is, in bad ways as well as good ways, I've always known that about him, but it was something I could live with. Last night though, I realized I cause alot of that selfishness by being the exact opposite and making him selfish of us time, and down time and things like that, because, not to brag, or try to sound "saint-like" or something, but I tend to be the exact opposite. I'm a people pleaser by nature, I've always been that way. So, I'll run myself completely into the ground, punishing myself physically and mentally to make someone else happy. It's just who I am. I don't think it's a positive atribute all the time, but whatever it is, it's opposite of Adam. He's a giving person, but not to a fault like I am, and by me giving my time and energy to all these other causes I short him, and leave him alone and make him feel bad that he doesn't have his own cause to give everything to.
I need to re-prioritize, especially this time of year when everything and everyone has a cause, and remember that my husband is my first cause. If it hurts him, that's the first sign I should say no, and that's what I'm going to start doing.