Trying to Keep Up

So it's been a week again, I'm getting bad at this. I really do like blogging, it's a good stress reliever for me, but I just don't have time to relieve the stress these days I guess.

I'm running, not physically, I wish it was physically, but mentally and emotionally alot right now. We're still doing the one car thing, which bothers my husband quite a bit. It's like he's not fully a man without his car or something. I guess I get it, but at the same time, it's been almost two months and if he's not going to start working insane overtime to make saving up go faster, he needs to get over it. If he wants to fix his car, he needs to do something to earn extra money. I already work more hours a week than he does, plus odd jobs and babysitting, so I'm thinking, if we still need extra money, it goes on him. I know it's his car, and part of me says that that makes it his responsibility, but at the same time, he's my husband and we share in everything, including the work, so maybe I could be doing something more.

Here's the deal-
He works 1 40 hour a week physically, mentally, emotionally draining job. He works for a school for kids with developmental and mental problems, along with situationally caused anger management issues. He gets beat up at least 3 times a month to some extent, even if it's just a knee to the groin. We're used to that. Ice packs are always on hand and the IBProphen bottle is always full. It's just part of the job. He goes to work at 8, finishes at 4, Monday through Friday, when school is in session. During the summer they have a week off at the beginning and two at the end, and summer session for 6 weeks in between. He gets 45 paid days off a year, plus weekends.

I teach 41 piano or guitar lessons a week. Each lesson is a half hour, and I drive to my students houses. Some houses I teach multiple kids. Including driving time, you can probably average about 50 minutes of my time gets devoted to each lesson. So, roughly 35 hours devoted to lessons.

I also coordinate the childcare end of the MOPS program at my childhood church. That's another 5-6 hours of prep, plus a 4 hour day for the actual program. So, 10 hours total work there, every other week, so 5 hours a week averaged.

Every other week I go clean a piano mom and friend's home for 3 hours. She has two very active boys and one 19 month old daughter that make it difficult for her to get all 4 bathrooms and her kitchen clean at the same time, so every other week I scrub them all spotless for her. So, another 1 1/2 hours a week if you average it.

Plus, housework, cause anything related to the laundry or kitchen is solely on me.

When am I supposed to find time to work more to make money so he can fix his car? I feel like I should be doing something to fix it for him, but seriously, there are just too many other things I need to be doing, to have to deal with this on top of everything.

Part of the problem, is his attitude about his car being part of him, and driving it being so important. I drive 20 something hours a week, it's work for me. I don't mind driving, I even like it sometimes, like when it's going to the mall, or a day trip away from Rochester, but daily driving wears on me. He's jealous of my daily driving and every time I give him the keys to my car for him to drive, he complains about how aweful it is because it isn't his car. I feel like he's being really shallow about it and it makes me not want to help him fix it, because it's not driving he actually misses, it's his fancy sporty whips around easily car, it's a status symbol that he misses. Like a 12 year old who doesn't have a cell phone needs one to show off, that's how he is about his car.

The attitude is wearing on me, and he knows it.