Need to blog, but the words aren't always there....

...at least an civilized words sometimes!

Yesterday was one of those days when the only words that wanted to come out of my mouth were words I will not repeat on here.

I hate to admit it, but my vocabulary is no where nearly as clean as it used to be, largely as a result of my in-laws treatment of me and our marriage.

Yesterday I ran the husband to work, came home, got a cup of coffee and sat in front of the computer to see a not so pleasant email from my 22 year old brother in law on my facebook email.

Basically, he accused me of publicly dissing my in-laws, mocking them, (on facebook, he doesn't know this exists) and doing everything possible to purposely upset them and tear my husband away from them, trying as hard as I can not to fit in or let them help me fit in with them, and a whole bunch of other bull.

He informed me I'm the worst thing that could have happened to his brother since his brother wants to go into ministry and I'm the worst example of a Godly wife he's ever seen and I'm seriously hurting his chances of ever succeeding in ministry because anyone who meets me will write him off instantly because of how awful I am.

I'm guessing this is coming from the fact that his mom, my mother in law friended me on facebook (seriously, worst nightmare come true!) and of course I accepted her, but I did limit her access, like I have with most of my mom's friends, or sister's friends, or people I don't see or talk to on a weekly basis from my own choosing. It's not like people know when you limit their access, especially when they're new to facebook. She can still see my wall, pictures, boxes, post on my wall, she just can't see my status updates or comment on things other people post first. I don't need my in-laws knowing everything I do, or being able to but in on other conversations I'm having.

I see nothing wrong with different social circles having different levels of access to my life. Some people I tell more than others, and now, in the social networking world, I'm trying to keep things that way.

But seriously, am I wrong in thinking that he's majorly overreacting and flipping out at me out of no where? And at a level much more malicious than necessary?

Is it also wrong that I'm letting him get to me? Mostly because it hurts my husband that his family is like this towards me?

I don't get it, I'm myself with them as much as I am on here or anywhere, obviously I'm not good enough for their family. I am good enough for my husband though, it just stinks for him that his family can't see that and accept me as well, if only for his sake.